Never Give Up. Never Surrender.

Hey folks, it’s time for another life update.

It’s been a while since I’ve been in the habit of making longer posts, but I’m going to try to do this again, especially as I try to use my websites more and social media platforms less.

I am sick again, but I feel like I am recovering quickly, so I hope to be back up & at it soon, particularly in light of all that’s happening.

I think it’s important to just speak plainly and clearly right now.

On a personal level, I am doing pretty well, all things considered.

My housing is covered for a few more months, I still am receiving EBT/SNAP/food stamps, I am still covered by Medicaid, and I still have caregivers coming weekly. I have a wonderful partner, I still own my own business even if I have no income right now, and I still am doing better health wise than I have in a long time after finishing my second round of TMS, getting the hysterectomy, and now getting off Cymbalta and other psych meds.

I am still struggling with my cannabis usage for various reasons including the fact that it’s impact on me is inconsistently beneficial, yet I can get pretty miserable without it still due to the IBS, dysautonomia, cPTSD, and other co-occurring conditions I am still attempting to manage and heal further every day as I can.

I am, for all intents and purposes, fairly safe and stable where I am in the Pacific Northwest currently, but we have to speak candidly about the prospects for a person like me doing what I have been given the state of affairs politically/socioculturally.

For quite some time now, several years, I have been very public and vocal about the criminalization and pathologization of my identity and way of being that exists in this world, and primarily in the USA since that’s where I am living at the moment.

I have spoken repeatedly about how autism is not what the DSM claims, how the DSM is not what it claims, how the entire medical industry is not actually here to help anyone heal from chronic, long term medical conditions as a whole because it’s more profitable to keep people sick with random, mystery side effects and illness symptoms. I have been talking about how autism is a threat to the status quo and the sociopolitical systems that are governing us all because of the autistic sociocultural immunity trait that allows us to see past the current rules and norms of a culture.

I have talked about how gender and sex are not what we were taught, how the binary is fabricated and made up as a tool to control us, how this all ties into the overarching structure of control and white supremacy in the global empire of genocide.

I have done my best to explain what’s happening and to urge people into action so that we can shift the course of events.

If you thought that I was overreacting in the past, now you need to eat humble pie. I don’t need you to suffer, but I do need you to own your arrogance and level of privilege. Only those with a specific form of privilege and positionality have the ability to ignore what’s happening and to not be aware of all of this.

I have been repeatedly pointed towards those in power and urged to tell them about my story and concerns and suggestions, but it’s always been to no avail. The moment those in power discover they cannot control or use me, they have no interest in me. They do not want to work with me or listen to me because I am telling them they are the problem and need to step down or help overthrow the system they’re benefitting from.

Autism is not caused by tylenol or vaccines.

Autism is not a disease, disorder, or illness.

Autism does not need to be nor CAN be “cured.”

Being transgender and queer is not a choice.

Being trans and queer is natural, not against nature.

Being nonbinary is natural and part of human history & culture.

White Supremacy Culture is baked into the foundations of the USA as a nation-state, and it’s always been this way. Things aren’t “getting worse”, they’re just getting worse for “white people” and those who had the privilege and positionality to ignore the horrors that have always existed since Europeans landed on Turtle Island.

No matter how many bigots try to erase and rewrite history and reality, there are more of us who know the truth, who side with love and life, who will be here after the fall of this capitalist hellscape.

The MAGAt regime WILL end. They will NOT win just as the Nazis failed in the end. Just as every tyrannical regime ends.

Now is NOT the time to put away your pride regalia nor is it the time to go into hiding if you have any amount of privilege and positionality to be able to come out en masse in solidarity.

Be wise, be cautious, be smart, but do not let your fear control you.

The moment we allow their cruelty to infect our minds, we lose.

I have been saying for a long time now that a civil war is coming.

If you haven’t realized it yet, it’s here.

This civil war is a continuation of the first one that was never truly fought for the right reasons and definitely won for the wrong ones.

This civil war is STILL about whether or not slavery is justifiable.

This civil war is ALSO about whether or not black and brown human lives are worthy of the same rights and protections as white ones.

This civil war is the moral and ethical determination for how far white americans have come and whether or not they’re able to understand now how their lives are interwoven with everyone else’s finally.

When your country’s actual governmental administration has declared the most vulnerable, the most marginalized, and the most in need populations and communities in your nation literal terrorists and enemies of the state, are you seriously going to sit there and continue to comply with ANY unjust and absurd laws?

How are any of you STILL complying with capitalism and imperialism?

How can ANY of you still go about your days and lives as though nothing is different and you can still act like you did before?

If you truly care about me, people like me, and those who are fighting for the right to live on a daily basis, DO MORE.

If you don’t know what more you can do, ASK!

A lot of what you can do is address whatever beliefs you have that you cannot do more… address the trauma, the pain, the disabling conditions that are under your control like identifying and rooting out the insidious and draining core that is white supremacist and colonizer sociocultural conditioning. The more we divorce ourselves from this toxic culture and mindset, the more energy we regain.

Going forward, I’m going to be focusing on how all the topics I’ve brought up over the past 5 or so years weave together such as neurodivergence, autism, chronic illness, developmental trauma, the social model of disability, intersectionality, disability justice, collective liberation, decolonization, unlearning whiteness, and so many other topics.

I am sending out and will continue to put out rallying cries for assistance in both financing and developing the new systems I’ve been talking about with my LLC, Gryffin Core, that I may be shifting into a grassroots collective and liberatory organization of lived experience educators and peer support specialists.

I know I cannot do this alone, but I need people who really understand what is at stake and have the capacity to consistently show up as they are able when doing this work.

This is no small thing. Nothing I talk about is small, but this time, this is really it. This is the call to arms & for collective action.

This is the start of us developing mutual aid systems and healthy, sustainable communities of interdependence here on Turtle Island, even in the midst of the MAGA Era.

We can do this. We just gotta not succumb to despair & work together.

“Never give up. Never surrender.”

No, this isn’t a MAGA quote.

This is a nerd/geek culture quote, and just like they’ve tried to take gaming and scifi from us, they are continuing to try to take everything else from us. We need to start standing up collectively against them and really begin to understand that they cannot take anything from us that we refuse to give them. This is our real power, and it exists within us all.

If we actually stand together, there is no reason why we cannot prevail. We got this.